I got "bleh" results and I'm going to "bleh" University!!!

It's today!


Everyone's getting their A-Level results and spamming my News Feed on facebook with what their results are and where it's taking them.


Don't get me wrong now, 'cause I'm totally happy for everyone, but it's a bit of a downer.


Simpy because I made a mess of my life and had to repeat a year so I'm behind all my friends. And then I made a mess of it the second time round and was withdrawn from my exams entirely. They pretty much kicked me out considering I was no longer on any of the registers and didn't have to attend any lessons after that...
Looking at it, my situation was pretty bad, but it did get better because I've got myself a place on a Vocal Diploma course for the next year and will possibly move on to the Higher Diploma if I actually manage not to screw this one up as well.

But naturally, being the depressing person I am, I can't help looking at everyone going on without me and thinking "Once again, I'm out of the loop". What can I say? I hate being left behind.

Not to mention I was going to go and support them today but Gothel, the evil witch that has trapped me inside my tower trying to convince me that everything in the outside world is bad and horrible and I'm better off inside, has decided that because I already went out this week, I can't go out again.
I'm actually going to become a hermit at this rate.


I was probably better off not going though, 'cause I'd just be a rain cloud (and it's currently raining anyway) in the corner of the room, mulling over my useless ability to continuously mess things up for myself despite how hard people around me try to help.


Ah well. Now that I've written this out I feel better and can probably get out of bed and go have breakfast. Although, Gothel is probably lurking downstairs just waiting to rub in the fact that I only have one A-Level, and it's not even a good one, while everyone else is off to University.
That's the brilliant part about Gothel; I cheer myself up, and she puts me back in a bad mood. She really loves the frown on my face.

But now I have a new code name for her. It's wonderful!

I'll forget it in about 5 minutes.

Just think, Brendon, this time next week you'll be sitting in Ryan's house enjoying yourself, waiting with great anticipation for the next day when we finally get to go to ***** ******** and see ****** ** *** *****.

7 days 23 hours 41 minutes x seconds

Next week should be a good one... 


Bren ♪♫